Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

mlm yg sejuk+hujan+love song buat mood saya agak gedik.
sbb?
sama sekali tidak akan di-exposekan di sini.hee :p

tp yg penting,
ada bahagia disitu. :)
*aku rase cm nk hempuk diri sndiri bila taep bnda ceni


oh~
saya rindu famili.
i need home,really.


p/s :: but still i cant find ways to let u go



nak jd jumper,
saya.

oho

hey,
i miss u.


T_T

on my own

dont depend on others.
a big DONT.

why?

because people just dont care.
kan?



tutup mata dan telinga,
saya.

maybe its true

i fall.

again.~






*lempang diri sendiri*




adoilaa..,
saya.

the skies are clear and blue

i dunno till when.
i'll just wasting time mengadap leptop terchenta nih.
google here and there,facebooking,blogging,and sometimes youtubing.
heh.what the heck are you doing syidah?

i'd prefer blogwalking rather than facebooking.
i love to read other people thoughts.and stories.
opps.it doesnt mean i like to jage tepi kain org.neither a stalker.
i just want to learn and know how people live their life.
how people counteract with their problems.how they move.
how they boost themselves.
and somehow,their motivation do affect me.too.

i adored and impressed people who write their thought in Islamic way.
whatever they write,there'll be some advice and thought for readers to ponder upon.
and i think thats the way everyone should be.rite?

me?
insyaAllah,i'll try to improve from this ngarutngarut blog to at least have some benefit for you readers.
its not easy.
the ngarutngarut sukahati post is very easy to write.
just write whatever u want to write.
and a thoughtful post?
it should take some times because the writer also need to think. yeke?
but i guess it shoudnt take that long if it comes truly from our heart rite?
+ur high capability to write.hehe





i'm thinking about to deactivating my fB account.
should or shouldnt i?
i'd wasted millions trillions of time,energy and electricity for that
connecting-people so called thing.
heh.




the silence reader,
saya.

he's my man.

suddenly.
the memories of 5 dec 2006 cross my mind.
a day after i finished my spm.
the day i loss him.forever.

only God knows how much i miss him.
how much i need him.
how i got jealous everytime my friends mention about their 'man'.

he's the man who used to take care of me.
who used to be the one i'm holding on to.
who guide me.teach me.scold me and even love me.

i miss him.
his jokes,his smile,his love,everything.
everything about him.


dad.
i love you.
and forever i'll do.
=(



tears,
saya.

tolongla wey.

cakap xserupa bikin.
kalau stakat cakap je,wa pon boleyla der!
semua org pon la boley!


wa kecewa dgn lu.




gerammm.
saya

dush!

somehow..








*ketuk kepala sendiri bnyk2*






xyah nak emo2,
saya.

teruskan berlari.

halo~!

saya sudah kembali dari cuti seminggu.
immune system down sepanjang cuti setelah bejaya bertahan ketika musim exam.
lepas exam tros demam.
trima kaseh ye en.demam sudi menyinggah,
baru ade keje cket immune system ni.extra work i mean.haha~

papepon,
saket tu penghapus dosa kan?
alhamdulillah.. =)


dan skarang saya suda pon di block 4.
final block for year 1.
wahh..
cepat betol masa berlalu.
da dkt staun saya kat uia nih.! wee~
rasa baru lg duk kol2 jpa,kol universiti,interviews,bla2.
zaman kejatuhan.huu~
saya akan ingat zaman tu smpai bila2.

sebab.
tanpa zaman jatuh tu,
saya xkan ada kat sini.
mungkin saya ada di salah satu ceruk di negara sana.
yg mungkin saya x akan gumbira seperti hari ini.kan?

thank you Allah.~


anyway.
selamat menjalani block baru untuk diri sendiri.
dan semoga beruntung dlm profesional exam nanti ya!




jiwa perlu besar,
saya.

susah.

just be coOl.

dun think bout that so much..
u're fine.yes,u're fine.

*sigh*


sometimes hurted,
saya.

i want them.

right here.right now.
how i wish they could be with me.

he & she.
i miss them both.a lot.

there's no reason why.
i just miss them~
=(


pikiran mlayang2,
saya.

semoga kekuatan itu milek saya.

"year 5 is tough,but year 1 is the toughest...."

ha.2 ayat from our dean.
mknenye?
study smart.stdy hard.consistent.understand.memorise.bla bla bla.

da lebeh kurang sbulan saya di uia.
menjalani hidup sebagai pelajar dentistry.
yeah.dentistry tu sronok.

dentist chair yg colourful 2,
buat saya jdik excited nak jadik dentist.
betol.!

5 tahun.
xlame.
xsekejap jugak.
harap2 semuanya berjalan lancar..
saya sedar bnyak rintangan kat depan sana,
tp saya tau,
ramai yang bersama saya.
sentiasa menyokong dari blakang.

terima kasih ya semua! =)

saya nk buktikan,
yang saya boleyh lakukan semua ni.
ya,saye penah terjatuh.
tp dari situ,
saya banyak blajar.
dan dari situ jugak,
saya tahu apa itu hidup..

dan.
saya akan terus kuaT!
macam superhero! hahahhaa
=D



memotivasikan diri sendiri,
saya.

just stop~!

erkh.
i hate this kind of things.
really.

cant u understand what i've said?
dah ckp melayu dah rasenye.
so can u???

i meant every words that i've said.
so can u just accept it?
i dont lie.No!

just stop it so i can live my life peacefully.
no more disturbance.
oh.how great it'll be.

erase me from your memory box.
its da best.~



tolongla faham,
saya.

mata tercelik.hati terbuka.

penah tgok cerita bukit kepong tak?ala.yang komunis serang balai polis tu.pastu dorang bakar berek polis.remember?

last week kot saye tgok cite 2 kat tV.sedeh plak rase.tingginye semangat orang dulu2 kan? memang saye tabik dorang.trime kasih kamu semua.(sbg tnda trime kasih,anda yg membaca sila sedekahkan al-fatihah untk mgsa2 bukit kepong bleh?)semuga mereka tergolong dalam org2 yang berjihad..

tetiba terpikir,
kite skang idup senang aje.
dari kecik lg semua bnda senang nk dapat.
mntak je,semue dpat kan?

time tok nenek kite dlu,
nk mkn pon susah,
apetah lg nk bnda2 laen.

so x heranla kalo time ari merdeka,
org tua2 smpai nangis.
sbb dorang terkenang zaman dorang.
betapa susahnye nk merdeka.
kite pulak smbut merdeka ngn konsert,
nyanyi ntah hape2.

patutnye buat tahlil,solat hajat besar2an.
sedekah untuk semua yang berkorban untk negara.
doa kesejahteraan malaysia.
bukan melalak tah hape2.

biarlah bulan merdeka lmbat ag pon,
nk gak tules sal ni.(sbb ni kan sy punye blog. =P )
sbb merdeka tu bukannye kene ingt tyme 31 Ogos atau bulan 8 je.
hari2 pon boleyh smbut.hehe..


ok.mase utk twilight.
novel telah memanggil2.
hehe.

last but not least,
LONG LIVE MALAYSIA!!




tiba2 patriotik,
saya.

saye benci prasaan itu.

ade yg tersirat disebalik apa yg tersurat.


eh.benci btol bile prasaan ni datang lagi.
saye xsuke.

erm.indah kan kalau perasaan frust 2 xde?


sayidah nafisah,,
rebah tak bemakna kalah.





xmao pikir lagi,
saya.

.jiwa.kacau.

..aku..

xberperasaan.

blur.

malas.

kosong.

tiada apa yg menarik.

xbest.



kesian pada dia.so sory.i noe i've changed,a lot.dunno why.

(T_T)
ku mohon maaf.



*searching 4 da moods*

ku.nak.dia.

wewee~

i'm luvin it~!

sgt excited ble dapat maen.

uh,mahu!!

..di manekah?

ke mane mau ku pegi?

owh~

ku pening..

smuge diberi petunjuk~
amin..

++ IMU's interview ++

juz come back from imu..fewh~
how was it? Alhamdulillah,ok laa..huhuhu. sampai sane lam kul 12.30,
farah jemput kat student service,hehe,thanx farah.. g naek motor ngan abang aku,xbley pakai baju kurung lagih.huhu.then lepak nga farah n kawan barunye jap,pastu baru siap2,lam 1.45 aku gi register, tgok2 name plak takde.
aiseyh~
pelik gak aku,xkan aku silap tarekh kot.then miss kat c2 cakap ade probs cket.suppose aku nye intvw kul 2.30,tp kene "delay,"pukul 4 bawu turn aku. erkh~! gile lame ag nk kne tggu,aku pon sabo je la,nk wat camane. so aku tggu kat student srvice tu,ade la bbrape orang lagi mamat chinese ngah tunggu untk intvw gak.aku lepak2 dlu sengsorang kat situ,tgok2 IMU.huhu.mcm best.tp macam sangat menakotkan.kat situ malay adelah kaum minoriti. brape orang je dak malay situ,bley bilang ngan jari je kot.yang kat student srvice 2 pon aku wase sume chinese+indian.
huh,dasat.
ttbe miss yang jage budak intvw 2 cakap aku dah leyh masuk,mase 2 lam 2.15. alamak~ td kate kul 4,skang da panggel.tp xpelah,dgn coolnye aku pon ikotla miss tu g meeting room..
smpai sane panel 2 twos suruh masuk.dush~

aku duduk je,twus tanye, tell me about urself..?
huh,soklan yang kunantikan..haha
b4 dat aku dah reke script siap2 ngan bantuan abg aku,ngee~
then dorang tnye ag lebeh kurang 4-5 soklan kot,sume sal diri aku.
so aku hentam sajalah.huhuhu

pas2 dy bagi satu case.lebeh kurang camnila,xingat sangat da ayat die.

"u were a pilot.u've on board for 3 hours,to get to the next station is about 2 hours but the wheather is stormy,and the destination is about 10 hours to go.suddenly,1 of the passenger got heart attack.what will u do?"

huhu.da ramai aku dengar dapat soalan ni..
agak suke bile dapat soklan ni.hihiihi.

"1st of all,be cool and calm.make an annoucement asking for any doctors on board and let the doc check that person 1st."

pastu panel 2 cepat2 potong,
"there's no doctors on board."

then..

"ermm..(sambel buat2 pikir)..to stop at the next station is very dangerous so i think it's better to turn back.."

dy nk provoke aku.pastu dy cakap,
"if other passenggers comment because they have appoinments or meeting?"

tetibe tringat ayat abg aku,huhu
"life is the top priority.we need 2 save life!"

pas2 tibe2 aku mndapat pujian daripada panel 2..hihihihi..
nak tergelak pon ade,tp xpe,aku hanye tersenyum. =)

pas2 aku plak tnye dorang.cket je la tnye,pasal IMU..
then kuar n balek~!
yippiey~!!
kejap je intvw 2,lebey kurang 15 minit.
naseb baek dorang xbanyak tanye~
hehe


tyme 4 waiting.uhuk~
sesungguhnye penantian itu 1 penyeksaan.huhu
kalo ade rzki,kne attend intvw lagi after dis.
fewh~

praying 4 my sunshine..~

2 je lah sal intvw arini..xsia2 aku tdo lewat + buli abg aku suh tlg cnstruct ayat bia nmpak matured.hehe
bawu ku sedar,aku sbenarnye x "meced" lam bab cakap2 neh.huhu
nway thanx bro~!
=)

-intro~!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

hello evrybody~

aku bawu stat blogging,saje mngisi mase lapang yg sangat banYak b4 masuk stdy..huhu.
blog ni pasal aku la kot,xpon pasal ape2 je la yg aku wase nk tules..hehe..
juz want to get sumtim by blogging.mende eh?ntah! hahah~

check it out!hepy viewing guys!